Blog reading

i love to read other peoples blogs and find that i get loads of tips from them.

ive decided to start leaving comments for the blog posters as i love it when someone leaves a comment for me, its nice o know someone is reading this!

so today i am looking at http://simplemom.net/ as i love her ideas on home management, so while i have a quick 5 mintutes in between all the laundry and cleaning im going to have a quick look

kat
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Saturday

So what are you all up to today??

its dreary, cold and grey here, but there is a slight chilly wind which i am taking full advantage of by hanging out loads of laundry.

I'm quite excited because for the first time in 8 years we have bough a new, yes brand new washing machine! i have had my husband buy me second hand ones thinking it would save us money but in the long run i didn't because we needed more repairs on them. but i was just grateful for a washing machine that works.

i feel so blessed today to have a brand spanking new one, i keep going into the laundry room and just kept watching he cloths going round and round!

so my new washing machine, washing line and tumble dryer are taking a beating today as i have loads and loads of laundry to do, but the only job i hate it having to iron them and put them away, maybe the laundry fairy will visit!


ive included photos of my newly forming piles!

ive only got one son at home today as my husband and other son are going to the stadium to watch a big rugby game so i can get lots done.

for dinner tonight i will be making welsh beef stew, i'll post the recipe and pics later

kat

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Christmas

Yep some of you may be dreading it but for some of us (including me) this is a fantastic time of year, the organising, the planning, seeing everything come together and of course remembering the birth of our Lord Jesus Christ.

so tonite i am planning for Christmas, i want to be the one who starts the family traditions, and it all begins here. so ill blog all about it.

to get me started i have purchased a book:

two steps forward and three steps back

so far today i was having a good day, things were looking up and then everything went to pot, but to cut a long story short my mum and sister have clubbed together and are against me so its just me my hubby and two boys and oh.. did i metion that my husband has brough me a new puppy two weeks ago? her name is pippin and she is a chocolate labrador and she is making me happy






have a look at her cute pictures:

shes just soooo cute!!

part of my re-building process in myself is to be a strong Christian mom,wife and woman. so at the moment i am googling to find some women bible studies, if you have any suggestion please let me know, but for the meantime heres what i found:

http://www.jamesknox.com/pdf/holywomen-english.pdf

http://www.juliabettencourt.com/devotionals.html

I don't know where to begin as i type this...

basically i am at my lowest....

i have been diagnosed by the doctor that i am suffering from depression,
last Saturday i felt like i lost control of my life,

i have an amazing husband, two wonderful children, a beautiful home, everything is good, a least i seems but...

i am still left feeling numb inside, empty and..

if i was to describe where i am at the moment i would say..

i am stood at he bottom of a big tall mountain, i have to take steps to get to the top and once i am at the top then i will find me .

you see, my childhood hasn't always been great, I'm a grown woman, mom and wife but my mother still tries to control me, pushes me down, stamps on my happiness, makes me feel worthless, makes me feel like i am a little girl and i havent grown up...

i look at the family i was in before i me my husband i now i can see how i fitted in, you see my mom had an affair with a married man, she fell pregnant with me, the said married man didn't want to know, my mom had me. two years later she met a man from another country, two weeks later she married him. she went on have a boy and a girl to him. the man she married didn't behave towards me as he should have, my mom took his side...

so theres a circle, inside it is my mom, her husband, my half brother and half sister, outside the circle theres me...

even now as i approach my 30Th birthday my mom still tries to control me, we live 400 miles apart and still she tries to control me, put me down...

how many times have i wished i had a real mom, but the best thing i can do is be the mom that i wish i had...

so after everything that has happened to me, i have tried to push it to the back of my mind for nearly 10 years, Ive been the doting daughter only to get hurt, last Saturday night my mind said enough is enough this stops now!

so my doctor has prescribed anti-depressant tablets and i am waiting for an appointment through the post to see a councillor...

but you know what, silly and foolish me didn't ask the Lord to help me, i didn't lean on Him, but trust me i am clinging to Him with all my might!

and as i am at my lowest i fell i can hear the Lord say 'its OK, I will build you back up, i will restore you'

i know that when i come out of the end of this i am no going to be the same person i was before it

Kat
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p.s

my husband brought me flowers in today, it brought a smile to my lips

help needed

hi all,

hope you dont think this post is weird but i am needing advice desperately.
the thing is i have a really bad phobia of spiders, the mear typing of the word is bringing a hot sweat out of me.
since i have moved into my new home, i have been seeing alot of them because this house had been empty for well over a year.
i feel like i am living in fear every single minute and it is taking over my life, i feel like i cant cope with this anymore, i am living in fear and waiting when i have to see a big massive one and i cant cope.
i dont know how to make this worrying stop and i need deliverance from i.
i feel like i has control over my life and is making me unhappy.

what can i do to stop these feelings?

at
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